Learning to slow down

I am definitely getting older…

While I’m holding up very well from a physical standpoint – meaning I’m within 15 lbs of my high school weight and still have most of my thick curly hair – mentally I am FEELING the age setting in with occassional bouts of forgetfulness (mixed with hurriedness). I was most recently reminded of this after a trip to Grand Lux Cafe in Chicago…

It was raining so hard when I left dinner and I would have had to take 2-3 buses/trains to get home so I decided to take a cab. When I got home I rushed out of the cab to change out of my wet clothing and prepare for a night of Hulu and wine juice.

As I setup my computer I gathered all of my electronics in front of me as always (2 Blackberry phones and an iPod Touch) so I would hear them if they range… and play Scrabble on the iPod while I watch TV. Lo, and behold, there were only 2! I was missing my work Blackberry!! *insert gasp*

I emptied my purse, shook out my business suit, groped at my coat pockets, walked every inch of the condo in serach of this pink Blackberry. No luck. I threw on some shoes and ran down to the lobby, even walked outside to see if it were in any of the street puddles where the cab let me out. NO LUCK.

Feeling defeated, I called the cab company to file a missing phone report. They were closed and an automated message informed me that someone would contact me the following morning. In a last ditch effort I made an outline of my evening, after that last Facebook post I made from the phone during dinner…

1 – Dinner Table? (check – I had it in my hand when I bought the cookies at the carryout counter)
2 – Carry-out Counter (double check – had it in my hand when I was on the escalator, PLUS I called the restaurant and they confirmed there was no pink BB found)
3 – Valet Counter? (check, I didn’t stop there since I took a cab this time)
4 – Cab? (hmmm…. don’t remember using it in the cab) 
5 – Home? (can’t find it in the house)

So that means its between numbers 3 and 5… which leads me to the cab ride…. I ran out the restaurant… hugged my mom… darted across the street to flag a cab… struggled to combine my bags + carryout + purse…. oh, wait…. THERE IS IT!!!!!

I jumped up, ran over the refrigerator and pulled out my carry-out bag. Sure enough… the pink Blackberry was there. Nesteled between a bowl of soup and carton of bread where I had carefully placed it, as I ran to the cab. I guess it wasn’t NEARLY as bad as the Minnesota bus-car incident, but still… reminds me of how fast I’m moving sometimes…. gotta learn to slow down. Makes me think of an India Arie song that I like. The lyrics in the second verse say:

Thinking the faster that I go

The faster that I will reach my goal
The race is not given to the swift
But to the one who endureth.
I thought that all of my obstacles were behind me.
Walking around like I’m made out of diamond.
I tripped and fell and it reminded me to move over and let the angels guide me.

Take a listen:

Slow Down – India Arie

6 thoughts on “Learning to slow down

  1. Rhapsody B. says:

    Blessings my friend…..
    It's been a while. I trust life is treating you kind. Yes you do have to slow down, seriously, you can hurt yourself in the process of all that run, run, run fast pace.

    Have a good weekend eh!
    Peace and smooches.


  2. Styln says:

    I feel you….sometimes things can get away from your consciousness. When you're juggling many things at once and your mind is constantly occupied, you can loose presence of self. You become distracted and can forget some of your moves/actions/reaction/activity. Some people even operate on “Automatic”, they are so preoccupied they can forget where they're going and end up miles out of the way or even get lost.

    To avoid getting to ditracted and to become more self aware, make sure you schedule quite time where you turn off all the phones, computers, electronic gadgets, tv noise and chatter and get quite, relax and even meditate. Re-center yourself on a regular basis and you'll negate the effects of stress.

    When you attend to yourself on a regular basis, you will better attend to the situations of life.

    Peace and blessings, Styln 😉


  3. Of course I cam cracking up over here. But dont feel bad…I loose my keys ALL THE TIME (hence the bowl at the top of my stairs that is for keys).

    I have found them in the fridge, in the door, etc. I also loose my phone. Lost it in Aiden's crib and reported it missing because I couldn't find it after 2 days…of course I found it once I got the replacement phone…lol.
    Wait until you have a child…your memory REALLY goes to Shit!!!!



  4. @Rhapsody – life is kind. For every complaint I would like to voice there is something that someone else is going through that makes my hurt so minimal in comparison.

    @Styln – such great advice!! I truly need to work on my Quiet Time and the art of re-centering myself. I have definitely hit “Auto” mode and its not a good feeling. I am going to start making changes today!

    @Aja – Please promise me that if I ever have children I won't lose what memory is left???? I can only imagine what danger that child could be in if my memory gets any worse! LOL


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